Hey you.
Do you know why my favorite season is fall?
our first meeting
June 1, 2022
Starting summer off to one unexpected start, I met Spookie on toyhouse when she commented on my design. Ive been doing designs for years, this wasnt anything new for me. Ive seen plenty of people come and go, offering a hello to be friends with me. I never really let anyone get close to me online... but her energetic personality drew me in, though, and we kept messaging eachother even if it wasnt about business.
Yeah. For me, it was so strange how somebody could be so interested in my life. How can you constantly be there every morning, asking and saying hello and messaging somebody you dont know on a website with... horrible messaging features. Mind you, there was no notifications that pinged your phone. That meant she was waiting for me every time I replied back.
It felt so heartwarming to talk to her during school. Sometimes I even dreaded going back home because that meant we'd talk less. Her company made me feel content, and I'd find myself letting go of the walls i built around my life to her.
Yeah, actually. The all mighty Spookiedookie , friends with me?
We eventually did move to discord, and thats when everything started to blossom.
She was like someone I couldnt believe was real.
When she talked to me, it was like there were sparkles in her eyes and everything I did she was so interested in. She shared her life to me like I was her own little diary, and we started to spend more and more time with eachother every passing day.
Her stupid jokes, her shared interest with mine, her love for design, her passionate care for the things she loves, her ability to make me smile even on the randomest times, and her reliability made me feel like I finally found someone I'd be friends with for years.
There wasnt a night we missed saying goodnight to eachother. I never thought losing sleep would be so worth it to talk about stupid things with someone. All the late nights i can remember how it always ended in such a sweet, comforted feeling because of her. I had the strongest instinct to protect her and make SURE she fell asleep peacefully before i did. It felt good to be her happiness.
Seeing her pop up on my phone kept giving me a tangly feeling inside. What was it?
I wasnt falling in love again, was I…?